Wednesday, March 31, 2010
WOOTSSSSSSS!!! I HAVE SURVIVED AND ENDURED 3 MONTHS OF SCHOOL! 7 MORE TO GO~ 
I have edited this photo of JiaWen and me into black and white..My hair blended into the background..
I'm lazy to post today but tomorrow is April's fool.
Wonder if i should prank anyone.
(:
-Xenon-
Random Chatter Of Xenon
4:58 PM
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
People tried to wake me up.Syafiqah told me on msn '' You are sad because of you''
It took me a certain time to digest.
So,i'm sad.
Because i feel that my life is pathetic,i feel that it sucks.
I told Helen that life is tiring.
She said'' yhea,but fun''
And she said something like life can be fun,if you make it fun.
Life used to fun for me in the past,
so why can't I do the same now?
I'm very sick of all this crap.
Zhi Ling,wake up.
Wake up please.
Random Chatter Of Xenon
9:47 PM
Friday, March 26, 2010
Sometimes we all need a paradise to escape. Today was actually not as ''emo'' as other days.
Well,its because I laughed at random things..
Like 170cm and Shi Peng's face.
Well,i'm kind of bad though. -.-''
I cannot believe Raj is taller than me.
Then all my juniors were somehow laughing at me..
Today i met my neighbour in the lift and she asked me I'm in primary what?
Arhhhhhh!
Am i really THAT short?
During PE,i measured and it was like 154cm already!
-___-
Anyway,short people are more AWESOME and CUTER than tall people.
So don't be jealous uh.
Feelings can be a weird thing at times.
At one moment you can feel happy
one moment sad
one moment angry
one moment hyper
one moment like you have nothing
one moment like you're life is so empty
Anyway,i realised my face somehow is always RED.
I'm not blushing or anything..
My seniors always say I looked NERVOUS or SCARED.
-.-
How great uh.
Today even Toni asked me if I cry.
I was like'' huh?! What cry?''
Cause Mr Amg cut my part in Acheivement Day..
But to tell the truth,i am happy.
I cannot memorized the whole chunk of words at all.
So its great that its being cut.
Dad is sponsering my camera somehow.
I think $150..
So happy (:
In life sometimes,you have to give and take.
You take things from others,its better to give back.
For example like happiness,when people cheer you up,you cheer them back.
It's the little things that makes life great.
I hope i can stay happy.
I truly hope.
I hate that feeling which i feel so low.
It really sucks a lot.
Quote of the day:''Realize that true happiness lies within you. Waste no time and effort searching for peace and contentment and joy in the world outside. Remember that there is no happiness in having or in getting, but only in giving. Reach out. Share. Smile. Hug. Happiness is a perfume you cannot pour on others without getting a few drops on yourself.''
-Xenon-
Random Chatter Of Xenon
8:38 PM
Thursday, March 25, 2010
Well,this is how I feel with my life right now.
I have no idea what I'm doing with it,
just wasting it day by day.
Every routine seems the same to me,
school and home and cca.
It seemed as though i don't have a life.
I'm sick and being sad,
I'm sick of complaining about life
I'm sick of not being able to be happy everyday
Almost everyday I think about life,
and i ask myself why am i so miserable?
Life sucks when you have NOTHING and you have NOTHING to look forward to.
I'm easily content,really.
But it seems as if God want to play a joke on me.
I hate myself sometimes for complaining so easily.
I'm making others miserable by complaining too.
Sometimes i truly wonder whats the use of me being on Earth?
Sometimes i really wanted to escape.
I'm really tired of all this.
When I was younger,i used to KNOW what is call happy.
All i want now is to be happy.
Everything is driving me nuts.
Whats the use of trying so hard,whats the use?
When you get NOTHING back in return.
When i was a kid,i used to wonder why does teenagers complain so much.
Now i know why.
It's pathetic when you think your life is sad.
Don't tell me to cheer up because i know i won't
Life is meaningless ;
I'm writing all this,
from the very bottom of my heart.
Did you even realise its blue in colour?
-Xenon
Random Chatter Of Xenon
7:54 PM
Monday, March 22, 2010
To let go
To give up
To walk away bravely
To be brave
To be fearless
To have courage
To breathe
I love this post a lot.
Random Chatter Of Xenon
6:46 PM
Sunday, March 21, 2010
Yesterday went to my niece Kyrene's birthday party..
Happy 1st birthday! ^^
Then ate loads of food.
Chocolate,marshmallows,cheese sausages,fishballs and others..
I received an sms from Jianxing yesterday regarding the music project
I smiled at my phone because i imagined him saying it and it was quite funny because he is usually talks in a funny way.
Then my cousins go and snatch my phone,they think is boyfriend or what.
Please lor,I'm such a good kid. :D
I should really stop thinking.
I think too much.
It sucks when you want something badly,yet you know its impossible.
School is going to start tomorrow,total sianzation.
I have not complete my Chinese composition and maths notebook and foolscap and English journal and worksheets.
OMG,the more i typed,the more homework i seemed not to have completed.
STUPID FACEBOOK!
I WANT TO QUIT LIAO LAH!
OMG AGAIN,why i am typing in this kind of singlish way again!
AHHHHHHHH!
[Quote of the day] Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect. It means that you've decided to look beyond the imperfections.
(i want to)Stop being obsessed with you,
-Xenon-
Random Chatter Of Xenon
2:57 PM
Saturday, March 20, 2010
I wish i have never know you in the first place
I wish i had an eraser to erase you from my mind
I know its quite impossible
but somehow i hope you know
:(
Random Chatter Of Xenon
12:45 PM
Friday, March 19, 2010
Today went to school for Achievement Day at 9am.
Sat with Simin on the bus.
I don't know why when i say the guitar very light today,Shahira and Vaithesis laughed like... =.="
My role in Achievement Day is quite weird,
for those who is interested,
you will know when achievement day comes.
I saw _____ today,
quite happy.
Anyway,i realised Manisha ,Vathesis also hate that bitch!
And we were high-fiveing each other because of that.
:P
I am worried that I cannot memorise that whole chunk of lines.
Wish me luck!
[quote of the day] You're the reason for the teardrops on my guitar.
Lazy to type today,
-xenon-
Random Chatter Of Xenon
6:14 PM
Thursday, March 18, 2010
Someone really disappoint me.
And you know what ?
I'm not going to bother anymore.
That's all I can say.
I am sick and tired of this kind of attitude?
What do you take me for?
I'm really tired of it all.
Random Chatter Of Xenon
1:26 PM
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
Pink things always look nice.So those who hate pink,SHOO OFF PLEASE.
For the camera,1200 is nicer but if 1100 is cheaper,i will buy that.
The pink ipod also look nice,but if i think use handphone listen also the same.
The phone,i think i will change this december bahh. (:
Going to cut my hair tomorrow,its so thick and bushy right now~!
Oh yhea,i'm acting in acheivement day.
3 lines only nia.
-.-
But never mind uh,cause 3 lines not so stressful,that time act in the CNY play,the lines must remember like siao!
[Quote of the day] Pink rock lah.
P plus ink,
Xenon
Random Chatter Of Xenon
6:27 PM
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
Today I read Fouzy and Valerie's blog posts..
Made me realise a lot of things.
Change is inevitable..
People change,things change and there is nothing we can do to stop it.
All we can do is either accept and try to adapt or continue to ignore it.
There is no need for people to change for others,you are who you are and no matter how you change yourselves,you are still you.
Behind your new shoes,thick wad of makeup or new bag,you are still you.
For example,if you thought hanging out with someone ''cool'' could make you the same thing.Well,don't.Because no matter how hard you try,you will just be a ''wanna-be'',not someone whom people will respect..Be yourself,and that's what matter.I'm inspired by Fouzy to write this post actually..In primary school,i used to want to go secondary school,and hang out in a cool clique.Well,that's the most stupid thing i've ever wanted to do,i think.Because if I did that,i definitely won't feel happy.Because if you're not comfortable with being around your friends,what's the use of having friends?Friends are supposed to be like someone whom you can be silly,laugh and cry in front of.Someone who will encourage you ,someone who will comfort when you cry,someone who will take good care of you like a sibling,someone whom you can depend and lean on.I hope that my blog post can change some people's thinking.This is not refering to anyone,seriously,but i hope you like this post of mine.
(:
I am very SATISFIED with this blog post.
Random Chatter Of Xenon
9:34 PM
Monday, March 15, 2010
Today went to northpoint with NPL AND Jiawen..
Gossip gossip gossip
gossip about CCAs,gossip about teachers,gossip about juniors,gossip about many things..
I LOVE to GOSSIP (:
hahaha,cause i'm gossip auntie mah.
I want to quit facebook liao.
That mindless,addictive thing!
But quite difficult lah.. D:
And i must control my temptation to spend money~!
LOW ZHI LING,DON'T FORGET YOU ARE SAVING UP FOR THAT CAMERA!
I spend mostly on food,cause i'm such a greedy pig.
Short post today,i miss 19151409
[Quote of the day] In the middle of the night,when i'm in this dream,its like a million little stars,burning at your name.
LALALAALA,
Xenon
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6:49 PM
Saturday, March 13, 2010
He became a distant memory.
Too far for me to catch
[Quote of the day] I want to erase you from my brain but i seemed to lost that eraser.
-Xenon-
Random Chatter Of Xenon
2:54 PM
Friday, March 12, 2010
Today i regretted going to school so early to collect my ca1 result slip..
Waited till about 4-5 hours plus for it.. :(
During that period,I listened to KuanYi's handphone songs and chatted with JianXing and PuayLin.
The teacher should ask us to come at a certian time and give us all at once..
A HUGE WASTE OF MY TIME.
After that went to northpoint..
Met Clarence,Jiawen and Helen at Mcdonald.
Zixun came later because she went home.
I was laughing like hell because all of them were so funny..
But Zixun was pretty quiet.
Because of one of Clarence's retarded comment,i CHOCKED on my french fries and it was stuck in my throat for a few seconds..
We laughed like hell,mainly because of Clarence's cabbage hair and red nose..
And also got the way i eat and some funny comments Jiawen and Helen made.
After that,we went to library with Mathan and one of the guys of e1.
Zixun and Clarence went back to school for their cca.
Then played truth or dare on Mathan's ipod touch!
He's so lucky to have ipod touch,i envy him!
He is actually quite nice today,he let me eat the sweets from he bought from Mini-toon and play with his ipod-touch.
Then after that they went home..
Left with Jiawen,Helen and me.
We played truth or dare using Jiawen's empty bottle..
Quite fun.
Then went to House Of Sports to check out my school shoes's price.
Mum is bringing me there to buy the next day.
Last stop was Old Change Kee..
Bought my currypuff and i take 800 with Jiawen and went home.
Since no one is reading this,i think.I shall tell my results.
I have 4 c5s.
:(
I really need to buck up.
I have only 2 As!!
Which is history and maths.
I am very satisfied with my history and only need 0.8 more marks to get A1!!!
ARHHHHH! ;(
Although i get a1 for maths but i am quite upset because most of my classmates get more than 80 marks..
I got 3 Bs.
2 marks to get B3 for my DNT.
*Sigh*
I REALLY NEED TO STOP SLACKING AND WORK HARDER.
Comments: Zhi Ling is confident and communicates easily with teachers and classmates.She has grown into a more mature student by taking on more responsibilities and has shown significant improvement in her CCA.(drama)
ZZZ.The second sentence was OBVIOUSLY directing at the CNY play.
But the comments teachers give are obviously quite fake.
So does it mean that I am a immature student in the past?
[Quote of the day] 'There are only two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle."
Mcvalue lunch and i need to stop slacking,
-Xenon-
Random Chatter Of Xenon
4:25 PM
Thursday, March 11, 2010
Hey guys!
I'm back from the camp!
The camp was boring for me,only some parts were interesting.
3 Things I Have Learn
#1. Never to sleep in front of a door
#2. Never to sleep in a dorm full of more than 40 girls unless you have to.
#3. Never to sleep in the middle bottom bunk and near people who's effing noisy.
Let me explain number 1.
THEY DON'T SLEEP.They walk in and out of the door,going to the toilet and everything.HELLO??? If you don't want to sleep,at least shut the fuck up and be considerate to others who want to sleep lah.Don't you guys have a brain?At a certain point of time,i really feel like screaming,'' shut up,irritating bitches!''
And there were boys who went in and out of our dorm.WHAT THE FUCK again.I sleep near the door,and i am really self-conscious about the way i sleep.It's not pretty at all.And you think they are quiet enough to tip-toe?NOOOOO!They're just fat-asses,do more excercise ,boys!
And since i'm in the middle bunk..It's pretty troublesome to get out of the bed..But Eileen and the girl from 2e4 who sleep next to me are not noisy at all..So i am considered lucky.The girl from 2e4 must do push-ups before she sleep..
All my clothes stink and everything..UGGGGHHHH.And they keep rushing us to bathe..
And i must really complain about this bitch.It's the first time i hate someone this much.Stop thinking you're so clever and everything,it only makes me want to puke.Your ____ is so disgusting and your voice is so annoying.YOU ARE JUST A SHALLOW PERSON to me,don't think you're always correct..
The campfire was the nicest..Clarence pulled down his pants and it made me laugh really hard..LOLLL!And i was quite surprised to see Helen,Mathan,JiaQing,Clarence and others leading..But they did a good job..
Stupid clarence go grab my bag when 800 came.Then i shout'' Si Clarence!'' HAHAHAHA!
So mean of me.LOLL!
when you said bye
yes,it did hurt.
[Quote of the day] '' You know its all the same,another time and place,repeating history and you're getting sick of it.''
Sweat and Sianzation,
Xenon
Random Chatter Of Xenon
6:24 PM
Saturday, March 6, 2010
OLE 2 IS TROUBLESOME!!
I'm lazy to pack those rubbish.
Here are the things we are supposed to bring ;
School/camp T-shirt - 3
Home T-shirts -3
Shorts - Bring Sufficient
Undergarments - Bring Sufficient
Windbreaker / Jacket - 1 (Optional)
Shoes - 2 pairs (1 for water activities,1 for dry activites)
Socks - 5 pairs
Towel - 1
Water bottle - 1 (compulsary 1.5litres or 1.25litres)
Poncho / raincoat - 1
Toothbrush and toothpaste -1
Toiletries (soap,shampoo etc)- Bring sufficient
Slippers - 1 pair
Notebook and pen - 1 set
Electronic Items- (Bring at own risk)
Plastic bags - For soiled clothings
Insect Repellent -1 bottle
Sunblock / cap - 1
Fork,spoon,plate,mug - 1 set
So troublesome.I would rather stay at home and facebook.
LOL! I don't think i will enjoy this camp.
Reason #1 - Yes,i am one of those girls who prefer to stay indoors.One of those quiet ones.I bet someone is laughing right now at the word quiet.
Reason #2- We are not in groups according to our class! :(
Reason #3- I hate high-elements
Reason #4- I hate to pack my bag.
Reason #5 - SECRET
Reason #6 - Puaylin and Jiaying are returning to dance on certain dates. WHAT THE HELL.
Reason #7 - I got a feeling the food won't be nice
Reason #8 - I am not used to sleeping in other bed except for my own.
Reason #9 - I think i will have to bathe in COLD water. *shudders*
Reason #10 - I have a feeling everything will kinda sucks.
Someone save me please! :(
Today went to Puaylin's house to do music project.
We still have geography and chinese project undone!
Stupid YaLun,refuse to cooperate,he said he will only give us moral support!
I seriously feel like knocking him on the head with a hammer!
Knock until his head bleed!
I have been waiting for someone's sms for days. It all started to fade. Stop treating me like a toy. I have feelings too.
[Quote of the day] ''But i don't know why but with you i'd dance ,in a storm ,in my best dress,fearless''
Sore throat and not looking forward to OLE 2,
Xenon.
Random Chatter Of Xenon
9:26 PM
Thursday, March 4, 2010
Hey guys..
Since i doubt anyone is reading this,
i shall ramble on and and on like usual.
Today was pretty funny,because of KahLong,Amsyar and Nawlfawl.
Nawlfawl kinda made me laugh because he was argueing with Ms Ang about the class T-shirt.
For me,i think THE CLASS T-SHIRT IS A WASTE OF MONEY.
Pure wastage.
Do we need a T-shirt to represent how united we are?
NO WE DON'T.
How many time we wore our class t-shirt last year?
Let me ask,the answer is LESS THAN 5 TIMES.
I hate my fringe to the core,
its so dry and feel like grass..
UGHHH!!!
I want my hair back.
Shallow people are like that.
Pure shallowness,drive me to the core.
It's disgusting how some people think their actions can attract attention,and yeah,let me tell you,the wrong kind of attention.It would not kill to keep your mouth shut even for a second,your voice only irritate my ears.
Anyway,i'm so NOT EXCITED for OLE 2.Please lah,who gets kick out of jumping from a 15m tall building?You think i'm practising to jump off a building for commiting suicide?Please,teachers,use YOUR PEA-SIZED brain and think..
I shall be a good girl do draw some holy crap for DNT.
[Quote of the day]
To let go isn’t to forget, not to think about, or ignore. It doesn’t leave feelings of anger, jealousy, or regret. Letting go isn’t about winning or losing. It’s not about pride, about how you appear & it’s not obsessing or dwelling on the past. Letting go isn’t blocking memories or thinking sad thoughts, and doesn’t leave emptiness, hurt, or sadness. It’s not about giving in or giving up. Letting go isn’t about loss & it’s not about defeat. To let go is to cherish the memories, but to overcome & move on. It is having an open mind & confidence in the future. Letting go is learning, experiencing, & growing. To let go is to be thankful for the experiences that made you laugh, made you cry & made you grow. It’s about all that you have, all that you had & all that you will soon gain. Letting go is having the courage to accept change, and the strength to keep moving. Letting go is growing up. ~Unknown
Lala land,
Xenon
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5:15 PM
