Monday, April 26, 2010
I really feel very tired today
I trying not to collapse
Sometimes I am really scared of finding out the truth
Thus i didn't probe
Because I'm afraid it hurts
I found out i didn't really know people well
My problems are piling up one after another
I really don't know what to do
I had a bad cold today
God please don't do this to me
I'm really on the verge of breaking down
Breaking into tiny pieces.
I just want someone to talk to,
someone who i can trust.
Why is it so difficult?
Breaking down soon.
Random Chatter Of Xenon
6:12 PM
Friday, April 23, 2010
People who know me for a long time,
will know i AWAYS fail my 2.4km
That's because I'm
1.Lazy to run
2.No stamina run
3.Give up too easily
Basically I'm just a noob in sports.
Today I forgot to wear my PE shorts to school,
you might find it funny but oh well,i have even wear my PE shorts the opposite side before.Yes,I'm that blur.
I wanted to borrow PE shorts from Hazel,as she brought her FBT shorts too.
_______ refused,even showed me that kind of look.
The kind of look where you narrowed your eyes and make you look like you have lines on your face instead of eyes.She asked me to run IN MY SKIRT.Holy crap,was the first thing that came to my mind.How the heck do you run with a long GREEN FABRIC dangling??All I knew was i want to prove it to you i can pass too.
Thus I ran,of course i did walk sometimes,but with several nagging from Hafiq.I ran.I'm sick of ______ looking down on us,the people who constantly fail.So what we are skinny?Does it mean we have the same stamina of those who are better at running?
When we reached,you even said''why today run so fast?Waste my time,you should have done this earlier!'' For holy god's sake,this sentence pissed me off.Fine,if we ARE wasting your time,go and sit in an air-conditioned office and do office work.We didn't force you to sit there and take our timing.
One more thing,PEOPLE like us can pass too,don't look down on us,you will only see our smelly feet!
One more thing,just wanted to thank NEO PUAY LIN today lah,usually you are a very kiasu person(no offence),but today you actually offered to helped me take my handphone pouch and even stoped to wave and ask me to continue running,I'm damn touched by your gestures.
-Zhi Ling
Random Chatter Of Xenon
3:19 PM
Thursday, April 22, 2010
我忍了很久
不知道还能坚持多久
Still have to stretch that smile
even if i'm feeling upset.
I feel like bursting sometimes
D:
Random Chatter Of Xenon
10:07 PM
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
This is just a random photo i took with my cca members..Excuse my retarded face please.Yesterday had NAPFA test,
i don't think i can get bronze.
Considering the stupid fact,
i failed STANDING BROAD JUMP.
I failed that almost every year.
I got 116cm,pro or what?
Sometimes i really feel so useless,
i seemed to sucks at everything because of my BLUR brain.
Even the guitar lessons today,really make my self-esteem fall.
I am pissed off.
Why can't you just ask me directly?
Why can't you just respect me?
Why can't you give me the privacy i need?
Why are you so paranoid?
Today saw _________ twice.
I was guessing whether that bag is his.
I guess correctly,ahahaha!
I'm lazy to update about my ''awesome life''
-Zhi Ling
Random Chatter Of Xenon
8:35 PM
Friday, April 16, 2010
Hello people!
Miss me or not?
Feel like blogging recently but i have NOTHING to blog about.
There are so much homework to be done,someone shoot me please.
Let's see..
History ws,UNDONE
Maths workbook,chapter 5.UNDONE
Maths foolscap.UNDONE
English project.UNDONE
Chinese textbook.UNDONE
Chinese compo.UNDONE
Art.UNDONE
ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG.
Kill me please.
KILL ME PLEASE.i mean it.
:(
I realised there's no point in staying in the past.
Once it's gone,it's gone.
No use pinning for something,
when you know it won't happen.
Random Chatter Of Xenon
10:04 PM
Saturday, April 10, 2010
I am quite happy due to certain things!
1.I passed my 2.4km napfa test!
It was quite unbelievable!
I am the sort who always fail..
Actually I pass by 30 seconds only,but that is better than failing right?
Please do not THINK that thin people can run fast.
My stamina sucks to the core.
2.I got full marks for the chapter 4 maths test!
I was very surprised as i could not understand the chapter.
But my last minute studying helped!
:D
Thanks Mdm Ng for the 3 sweets/chocolate.
3.Received a box of Ferrero Rocher from Ms Tow because I helped her to fold paper and all that stuff for the Achievement Day thingy. (:
4.Achievement Day is finally over!
It was quite fun..
The food sucks though,quite typical,this is budget school,i don't expect shark fins and abalone.
Camwhored with seniors..
I'm lazy to upload the photos though.
I hate my handphone's camera quality,really SUCK a lot.
Why is money so hard to save anyway?
I want my DIGITAL CAMERA.
The most funny thing is that when Shi Peng,Bava,Raj and me were playing with Shi Peng's wallet,his IC and all that flew out.. Onto the pane.. It was really hilarious,idk HOW to explain.They used the mope to push the things on the ground.LOLLL
And i was ''abused'' by some of my seniors,they keep beating my leg,give me blood circulation.
Illaisha,Simin and I also discussed about how DISGUSTING Amos is.
Apparently he is that weird guy who smsed me last time.
Then also got add me on facebook,Shuek go and accept then i go and remove.
Ew.Gives me the shudders even thinking about it.
Being short sucks,like for example someone snatch your handphone,you can't even snatch it back.-.-''
Toni read chinese really very funny..
Hahahaha!
It is not my fault that I'm like that.
Not my fault I'm quiet sometimes.
What is the use of talking when you don't have anyone you feel like talking to?
I seriously hate it when people say ''Don't be nervous'' , '' Why you look so sad'' ?
Every SINGLE cca session someone will ask me that
My face naturally like that,cannot meh?
And i hate it when people stare at me using that kind of expression,like i have done wrong.
FUCK YOU lah.
Think your eyes very nice meh?You're lucky that i did not dig them out.
Just because I'm nice,you don't have to take advantage of it.
I see certain people's face,i damn pissed off.
Not happy then fuck off please.
I'm not born to make you happy.
One more thing,don't tell me stuff when you don't mean it.
I lose faith in you already.
---- [Z]Ling
Random Chatter Of Xenon
11:28 AM
Monday, April 5, 2010
This is seriously going to be one tiring week,
CCA tomorrow.How great.
CCA on Wednesday.How awesome.
CCA on Thursday.How fabulous.
Achievement Day on Friday.
What is the school trying to do?
Make us into robots??
Today art homework is for us to draw sunflowers using grid.
How stupid.
Why can't we just buy from the supermarket?
So silly,from today onwards,I declare i hate sunflowers.
stuck in my lala land.
Random Chatter Of Xenon
7:52 PM
Sunday, April 4, 2010
I don't think that passenger seat
Has ever looked this good to me
He tells me about his night
And I count the colors in his eyes
He'll never fall in love he swears
As he runs his fingers through his hair
I'm laughing 'cause I hope he's wrong
And I don't think it ever crossed his mind
He tells a joke I fake a smile
That I know all his favorite songs and
I could tell you his favorite colors green
He loves to argue, born on the seventeenth
His sister's beautiful, he has his father's eyes
And if you ask me if I love him, I'd lie
He looks around the room
Innocently overlooks the truth
Shouldn't a light go on?
Doesn't he know I've had him memorized for so long?
He sees everything black and white
Never let nobody see him cry
I don't let nobody see me wishing he was mine
I could tell you his favorite colors green
He loves to argue, born on the seventeenth
His sister's beautiful, he has his father's eyes
And if you ask me if I love him, I'd lie
He stands there then walks away
My God, if I could only say
I'm holding every breathe for you
He'd never tell you but he can play guitar
I think he can see through everything but my heart
First thought when I wake up is, "My god, he's beautiful"
So I put on my make up and pray for a miracle
Yes, I could tell you his favorite colors green
He loves to argue oh and it kills me
His sisters beautiful he has his father's eyes
And if you asked me if I love him
If you ask me if I love him, I'd lie
yes,.i would lie too.This song has a special meaning to me.The lyrics,some part quite ironic..
Random Chatter Of Xenon
7:07 PM
Thursday, April 1, 2010
Today was 1st April,
the first day of April.
Which is also April's fool day.
Released @1.30pm
got achievement's day full-dress rehearsal.
Today was quite happy..
Hehe.
Cos i get to shake _____'s hands.
Cos i accidentally touch _____ hands.
Cos i went ________ with ______ today.
Cos i talked a lot with ________.
Cos _____ asked me when i ran.
Cos talk quite a lot with ________ today.
HAHAHAHAHA!
I bet you guys don't understand my post.
But never mind,i'm just bloody happy today over lame things.
It's good friday tomorrow,no schoollllll!
YAYYY!
Wonder if I should do something meaningful tomorrow.
Ps. Mayank so lame on the way back home.
Xenon
Random Chatter Of Xenon
9:15 PM
