Friday, July 13, 2012

I need to learn to believe in myself and stop putting myself down so much everyday. It's unhealthy. I need to stop blaming myself for things that happened long ago. I need to stop harping on my own flaws.

But the thing is, somewhere along the line last year,I lost the ability to love myself.

Bet you had no idea how disgusted I feel to be me at times.

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11:51 PM

Monday, April 30, 2012

OMG blogger changed it's layout,hate this man. Yeah,I HATE CHANGES.
Screwed up MYE. I'm serious. Spent so much time on Emaths and neglected physics.
In the end my emaths also screwed up. I swear all the teachers want us to die before O levels, all the exam questions are nuts. 

It's like my life only revolve around studies and studies. No life. :( 
I miss those times where I can go out when as I wished and I didn't take studies so .. seriously.

Like I lost a part of myself and the thing is,I don't even know how I can find that part back again.It's like I'm injected with worries and depression and I don't know how to embrace the little things in life again. Oh no.

 today i dream of you and cried. memories became vague,time heals. but you gave me too much to remember.

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11:34 PM

Saturday, May 14, 2011

Went out with 2e3'10 to Marina Barrage.Let the photos do the talking.

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9:56 PM

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

CNY performance today.
Screwed up the dance LOL
but who cares,I tried my best and that's what mattered.
Was in a very bad mood.
Note:I used was.

After the performance,had stomachache and I bear with it till the finale was over,
rushed to toilet and LAOOOSAAAAAAI.
-.-

A few asked about it,I smiled and say it was paper cut,no use explaining so much.

So after that,I went out with Amirul and Yunxuan till 1pm.

The rest at facebook.I am lazy to upload everything.I really enjoy going out with this 2 hyper and crazy friends,they never fail to make me smile and laugh.

My face always look so unhealthy. :( I'm fourteen and I don't look my age.Under-nutrition pig.

And and and,I met up with Syafiqah after that.. She came to my house with 2 big bags,containing clothes which she don't want and we wore them and used her dslr to take photos of them,with us as the models MUAHAHAHA. She plan to sell them at facebook.. Some of them are really nice!

I still can't decide what to wear tmr.. A lot of my outfits are either black or white.

I am quite proud of myself LOL.
Been quite cheerful lately sometimes,at least never every single day emo.
Despairing about life.
Cause there are still things to look forward to.Like my ipodtouch.so i can block out those voices.

But when I saw you today my heart sank you know?
i watched your back faded as you walk away.

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6:31 PM

Friday, January 28, 2011
Life as it goes.

Made up my mind to be happy.


Or least I hope to be:)

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11:05 PM

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

I don't like it at all.
Jealousy.
EEEEEEE I don't wanna like him... Cannot afford to sia.

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10:49 PM

Monday, January 17, 2011

CNY play was alright today I guess,hope we don't screw up in front of Ms D tmr.
You,I don't wanna like you anymore.
It's painful,confusing.
Maybe I am liking for the sake of liking?

I am standing solo this year I guess.
School-boring shit.

I miss 2e3,cannot deny the fact.

Dreading Physics.BORING SHIT.

ZhiLing,please move on,its already 2011.

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9:15 PM

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